POEMS

Alphas

Before the body and tears

the Serpent’s syllabic length

rounds Woman’s invoiced paradise—

grassy ankles, secondary ribs

and unversed  mammalian breasts

mean little.

 

Despite the thou-shalt-not threat

the talking head leans in and

their tête-à-tête stirs in her

a yen for the fruit’s smart flesh

her mouthy bite breaks into scarlet skin,

the rebel crunch resounds—

 

by Her hand, the apple scores the Alpha letter.

 

Bossy where art-thous call now-knowing eyes to heel

ground the agitator angel to dust-kissing reptile

exile mom and dad to lowly servant’s digs where

                                    all the clocks start ticking

 

still, such unforgiving light spells an exile’s

rightful home mortgaged now to a greybeard

who drops in Adios palms, a secret clod of heaven

 

the outlaw seed clotted in its core

 

slamming the garden gate, Adam’s

free hand whorls a soiled fist

at that fatal sentence planted now

in every tongue at birth    She

tastes salt-water kisses   inhales jasmine winds  

liberty’s musk-sass in terra firma

I think    I conceive    says    Eve.

 
 

Frankly A Woman

for Ursula Franklin (1921-2016)

Un-Apologia

WAR calcifies the mind’s mantle, ossifies thought, fossilizes the skull. My teen hands rake and salvage rubble, decode German stone. First woman geologist at the University of Toronto, I gold-leaf a skull-and-crossbones calligraphy for the Book of Radium.  A Quaker, I tremble like a night-quivered light house beam, witness how words leak FEAR, how dread’s stutter gutters brain and heart.  Where Bosch skeletons girder nodding heads, the president choreographs an Atomic Danse Macabre. Beneath the lodestar, a sulphurous O encircles mushrooming egos.  Terror discharged, nuclear lullabies turn soporific, but I am an insomniac, a rock scientist Geiger-counting collateral radiation lurking in babies’ virgin teeth. Result? Nuclear testing goes underground.

 

Ursula Franklin Contemplates the Manhattan Project

1

God does not play dice with the world, Einstein pontificated

yet, people do say I     so say

Earth is a deceptive       rock  

                                                                     volatile      seething

                                                                             at its gut

 

its surface concord   a shell game

the upper-crust a hard-sell façade

occluding tectonic amity                          in iffy equipoise            

 

                             gritty plates seesawing

 

an elemental tug-o-war

 

ridge scrapes slab, its push    n   pull 

  

                                                                                    pressurizes resistance

 

An earthquake is no accidental secret

 

only a noisy planet                   cracking under a smouldering core

 

fuming through mantle to crust

                                                     booming seismic rupture

 

2

To my point, human genius gilds

a gory mimicry 

 

so heavenly bombs tailspin

in the abrupt rumble   

of the technocrat’s pro-Hiroshima breach

from violated skies planes blitzkrieg psalms

bricked-in lives crumble  

concrete crumples corpses into monstrous twists

 

and rough prayers guide our descent

to subterranean beings

 

3

Witness my birth on a Jewish fault line

strained by post war tectonics become theologies

compelled by the Treaty of Versailles’ fun-house mirrors

 

and at this epicentre, a beerhall orator’s snarl

a jingo Sunday painter jolting the jungvolk’s grudge

kicking up brown-shirted throbs   

jack-booted payback for the volatile nerves

of German volk seesawing wheelbarrows

of mercurial, dissolute deutsche marks

 

By’ 33 the putschist stomps from beerhall

to Reichstag.  Underdog brouhaha rumbles

as Chancellor Hitler spit-flecks his flock

with vulpine bloodlust

 

smarting Aryans come to heel

 

the sky-slap of slant Heils

augurs goosestepping troops

set to kick off Europe’s shellacking

and stoke bonfires to torch Jewish chutzpah.

 

3

Munich born and paternally protestant

mother’s six-pointed Star of David

hit the spotlight back in ’43,

SS hooligans schooled me in precocious panic

dragooned mom and dad into a cattle car

set for Auschwitz            and me    a

lone 17-year-old yanked from my books

ranked for chain-gang slavery

    

eighteen months

of fingering through rubble for salvage

as Jack Frost gnawed legs, feet, toes

each winter to this day, an acute

permafrost lament chills my flesh.

 

Know that this daughter

of the camps, this subject

of the blue-tattoo empire

outlasted

the Fuhrer’s Keres-driven gas

to be primordial Earth’s subversive advocate  

a geologist chasing down inborn peace

digging up deposits of golden goodwill

dormant in Earth’s inner life and my own

interior light quaking before God’s

peaceable kingdom  

 

Wisdom tells me peace demands

more than the silencing of the Messerschmitt’s spitfire

that humanity’s sweet spot craves Fear’s finale

 

But Einstein, trying to put the brakes on radioactive Hitler

goes nuclear

his thumping dread hectors his pen

onto Szilard’s letter, convinces Roosevelt

to rubber stamp The Manhattan Project

the chain reaction bombards thought   

the hypothetical string multiplies, amplifies angst

 

blinding a world citizen, wonder-struck by Beauty,

who exited the Reich, embraced his stateless status

and peacenik parley induced by the smug swagger

of war chemists pioneering death’s

sly breath as chlorine gas             Now

scuttlebutt wafts through the Kaiser Institute…

 

a certain heavy metal

one with the highest atomic weight

is hot stuff    that Germans are hoarding

                                                                 Czech uranium

 

Observe how probability spurs imagination

reifies Reich physicists slicing atoms    into concatenations

of neutron-driven triumph and POOF             

                                                                   ahhh    nihil ation

 

Witness Einstein’s vexed hand

set his weighty autograph to the page

landing in Roosevelt’s hands

how terror’s relay powers up

The Mad Hatter Manhattan Project

 

in New Mexico talking skulls  

and five-star uniforms doom

a corpse-clotted Earth  

to A- bombs mushrooming….

 

 

4

And woe to the éminence-gris

who laments the éclat of his name

detonating on a White House desk  

 

if only he had taken the long view

and looked past the Presidential Rose Garden  

he may have spied the General

jigging his boots at Los Alamos

annexing the faraway plains of Alamogordo

for Trinity, a newfangled grim reaper

who will speed down New Mexico’s

Route of the Dead Man

and soar into the nuclear age

 

Cradled in Enola Gay’s inaugural foray

America’s ten-thousand-pound baby

                                                                 nicknamed Little Boy

fireballs Hiroshima and in a trice

vaporizes 100,000 humans

 

Oh, we scientists are sorry

after-the-fact visionaries

stranded on a remote Alcatraz

of technological imperatives  

until Japan’s incinerated shadow citizens

killed Oppenheimer’s cool

drove his chain-reaction doppelganger

to mutter a fatal soliloquy   I am become

Death,

the destroyer of worlds—

 

5

Now note Einstein’s wild-haired regret     his atonement

via the Russell-Einstein Manifesto

and Pugwash Conference.

 

But each researcher knows it is the long shot

she must pre-view, so glimpse Lise Meitner

the first atom splitter, minding

her farseeing lioness-heart    looking askance

at atom bomb yeasayers

 

Summoned to join the Manhattan bromance

she demurred at mass murder    chanced   a womanly

                                                                             NEIN.

 
 

My House

 The struggle against power is the struggle against forgetting

-Milan Kundera

Downing storms lift away night 

a new morning breaks through rubble—rescues 

me from dreams deafened by F-16 fighter jets, 

deadened by MK-84 mega-bombs 


from twilight’s empire 


of twisted rebar, pulverized lives, the living stench 

of burnt-to-the-bone toddlers, forever asleep 

in weeping, fragmented mothers 

Where to rest their slaughtered love 

in this unmoved calendar of butchered tomorrows? 


while clearing a new day of oxygen-starved newborns 

the addled street sweeper recites multiplication tables 

and the intrepid doctor’s tear-soaked voice ascends 

the rising emptiness of a stairway clinging 

to one more mangled school…. 

but no amount of coffee this morning muffles red flags 

flapping in his plea, we are dying now, hear me…. 

And while the street sweeper reimagines 

torched oleanders, tenderly gathers 

the death count mounting outside besieged Al Shifa Hospital 

nails it to the doors of the Knesset and Whitehouse, 

exponential body bags press against my door— 

it’s my doorbell the disremembered murdered ring. 


And all the while a naked girl races through my hallways. 

Skin seared by Napalm’s sooty bloom, she flees 

into the TV’s all-consuming lens—on her heels, 

a train of scalded children and moms 

cradling limp babes in their arms 


and like recurrent echoes of a barbed heartbeat 

a skeletal girl clad in Auschwitz stripes 

and her knobby-kneed twin riffle my kitchen, 

hands stuffed with bread, oranges and history 

they sit cross-legged before the blazing fireplace, 

in the flames, their heartbroken mother flickers 

her glittering blue eyes and powerful arms 

shield a Palestinian newborn 

the two cry out 

as mother and child 

float off 

chimney smoke scarring the sky. 

 

 

 

 

The Archivist

“The Archivist” won 1st prize in The Venera Poetry Contest. “The Archivist” is the story of an immigrant to Canada from Calabria. The initial quality the reader will notice is the firm grasp the author has on free-verse prosody (so rare these days!); this is a well-constructed poem. The tale it tells is a common one, and it reminds Canadian readers that Canada is much more than a country of people whose roots go back to either the British Isles or France. It deals with the struggles immigrants face: poverty, learning a new language, separation from family, etc. And it deals with the attempt to retain something of the “old country” in the new one. Finally, the actual immigrants experience a separation from their children and grandchildren in that their descendants are “full” Canadians while the immigrants are “hyphenated” Canadians, caught, as it were, between two countries. (And this works the other way, too — children born and raised in Canada often have trouble relating to their foreign-born parents.) Importantly, readers are reminded of the vital role the tales of these new Canadians play in making Canada what it is — a nation of many different, and valid, stories. All this and more is covered in this remarkable poem — James Deahl  

My birthright, that schoolboy’s pebbled leather satchel

carted from Calabria’s parched paradise,

companion to the weighty desktop encyclopedia—

two volumes flaunting the Italian you courted

with a chevalier’s ink, pages doubly bound

by a cavaliere’s lust for wisdom and verse,

your pen biding beauty’s brio. 

 

Did that pliant vault soften the rough Atlantic

by harboring sea and earth, a twirl of hair,

your mother’s picture, a Mediterranean shell 

or did it lay destitute—an expectant void

fertile only with the future—to shelter, say

the antics and annals of no-account players,

unschooled scholars foiling each day’s

scatter in a swirl of dreamless sleep?

 

You, an autodidact scribe, logging lofty

and nitty-gritty rhythms, an archivist piecing lives,

gathering pages, images, musings against forgetting 

ourselves, fleeting as ephemera fading,

the blank life threatening… 

 

Your voice set against erasure like a piazza

composing public memory—unthinkable to overcome

without a word, poverty’s rubble, a tongue-tied exile,

the rupture of family and familiars–so before

the time-card’s whistle, rise from ruins with the light,

veto silence by marking unremarked characters.

 

With no home, no wife and kids, no money

you pulled into Toronto, gravitated to a communized

Victorian in Little Italy, five fellow loners your roommates,

at night again, you roused a pen flush with oceanic currents,

spewed satirical rhyme echoing migrant woes—

the ugly looks and bum rap brutality hostile

Hogtown Anglos heaped on dirty, hot-blooded wops,

or pick-pocket priests preaching dollars over prayer

as proper love of God, tagging you the devil’s twin

for acerbic songs limned in cobalt lines wailing

in that satchel sanctuary—peasant wit, a grave chronicler

waxing to populist poet—witness to the overlooked moment. 

 

Back home you glossed an imaginary figure 

fragmented in air mail letters spilling poignant

mea culpas for meagre funds dispatched,

and mother weeping blue tears in epistles,

wringing work-hardened hands lest love be disfigured

in a vast sky where time’s fault cracks bonds  

so hunger and thirst no longer remember vows

that bind night to day summing to half a decade 

to reunion at Union Station…

 

all the while recording, animating space with glaring

photographs depicting a black and white city of men

missing women: clippings from giornali and newspapers,

missives from intellectual cronies to Il Giornale di Toronto

homesick magazines pushing glamour-puss celebs,

cryptic columns from The Globe and Telegram,

ideological posturing, political double-talk and mirth:

an elect obvious and oblique, revenants suspended

in that immigrant treasury—the past

passed on—becoming…

 

 

You kissed a toddler goodbye, we touched again

as strangers. Shaped by your passions and persona

I contoured into a mirror, prizing books, stage and poets. 

Afloat in the sixties, my rebel-girl favoured brandy 

and smokes chasing a freedom that eluded you;

only 25, raging tears on that goodnight a burst aorta

blitzed your heart, I refuged in the bathroom,

sipped whiskey, toasted Dylan Thomas. 

 

Your paper remains abide as my inheritance, a death

transcending re-collection crafting a man unreadable

beyond the workaday barbershop and prosaic papa, 

his ars vitae time-capsuled in crumbling skin.

For decades I cart, guard, closet that satchel, avoid

trespassing upon a stashed away bio. 

 

Now, at an age when saving promises

no end other than itself, over a private telling,

I crave an opening—the found moment

where ephemera evolves as history.

 

To rouse a life bigger than a daughter’s lens

or genealogical myth, my dig flounders as I unravel

yellowed years, haloed ink blurred by neglect.

I strain to decode Italianate script and shifting form

to enter a writ become my second tongue

and revel in your philosophic drift.

Musing on wounded jottings and smart-ass aphorisms,

wistful for your knowing smile and soulful spunk—

eloquent clocks re-verse to banquet halls; again I witness

you speechifying marrying rhetoric and lyric at festive nuptials

or brains and book-learning to endorse a politico paesano

vying for votes reaching to unlock the “ethnic” paddock.

Then on to clashing missives when I blew Toronto

to get back-to-the-land (the very life you’d evacuated)

and set my hippy soul free in nota bene New Brunswick,

verbal fisticuffs we threw across generations—muscular,

laced with bloody love, so as I write my heart

sounds, longing—to lean into your warmth. 

 

To woo the chief archivist at the Fisher Rare Book Library, 

like a tutored orator and done-good poet,

I piece your story between cerulean covers. 

A go-between shuttling voices, faces, crossings

and landings—with unalloyed hope, I unscroll

your artful artifact, the bittersweet, sweat-soaked diary

of two interconnected, disconnected countries.

 

Yes

paper binds beginning to end

sealed by final words penned on that farewell morn,

the salutation—your arabesque signature

a lettered last kiss, archived, winging off the page

into illuminated finding.   

 

HOME - SICK

 
    

A story out of a bat cave, 

set in invisible ink afflicts the headlines 

a cimmerian microbe blights garden and street 

flings spring into lockdown—

  

given the opacity of tomorrow, of airports in a chokehold, 

our wings collapse—stranded

dragging sagging hearts, we head indoors.  

  

Flashing a punk-spiked crown, this viral marauder 

wields exponential power, dictates bulletins,  

updates the death count, outlaws touch 

as it proliferates via lips and hands.

Statisticians and medics crunch numbers, ride

vectors and peaks, map deadly intersections

where each neighbour or passerby veils the odds. 

  

Where each citizen disfigures the social contract, 

two metres mandate mortal isolates; 

with wary looks, we damn each other, 

shun hugs, shed the pat on the back. 

Under a sky gasping for oxygen, corpses pile up, 

eyeing hazmat-suited nurses mirroring hellish 

sisters-of-mercy—we settle for air kisses. 

  

Borders toughen and turn icy, bristle with searchlights,

each beam pins stranger to strangling invader. 

 

At breakneck speed the mace-like butcher

lacerates the poor, penetrates slaughterhouses 

and prison cells, slashes elders damned 

to infernal retirement havens where bankers

hurl barbed stars at the homesick perdu.   

    

And aren’t we all legislated homebodies now— homesick for air? 

Sizing up our clannish cages, we pace 

between grandma’s handwritten recipes and legible screens, 

blow out virtual birthday candles and make a wish 

for this to end. Grounded in domesticity, long days 

echo the tempo of sourdough and seedlings.

 

Exiled from this long-suffering earth, we circle 

in bubbles, turn inward and unclock, 

kid around and lose at Payday— 

with work and play bound in yellow caution-tape, 

life’s bustling whirl screeches to a dead stop—

  

deserted streets throw up the homeless,

benched, with no roof to shelter-in-place; each day 

bares the raw-boned body of caregivers and migrant workers, 

bilked as they scrub toilets and fill the fridge,  

a wing and a prayer, their only PPE. 

 

Two metres is not the social distance separating us, 

it’s the rift between homeless and housed, 

the gulf between essential and non-essential,

the chasm between have and have-not,

exposed and cleft deeper by an equalizing virus 

unmasking the fault plaguing us.  

 

PLANTING LIGHT

 
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“Planting Light” was written in October 2019, to support the auto workers at the Oshawa General Motors plant. It is published in the Spring 2020 issue of Our Times (Canada's Independent Labour Magazine).

 

My lungs ache, my chest tightens

when I remember the skylark’s grounded wings, 

the mangled contract;

how fossil fuel tycoons, every day

get away with murder,

while snug, in private planes, smug GM execs

jet through workday rainbows,

incinerating four generations of auto workers;

 

all the while poormouthing, emitting do-gooder bunk 

as secretly, they idle the clock.

 

Mum about concessions and two-tiered wages, 

assembly lines rear ended as they pile up dinero;

tight-lipped about billions in lapsed loans

or in-cahoots politicians–forgive 

and forget about GM on the dole

pocketing bailouts as backhanded bounty

so corporate bums ride on the taxpayer’s dime

then crash the books ‘til numbers combust 

to a scorched earth policy.

 

And Mary Barra, cushy 

in the company’s stretch-limo hearse,

driving a geopolitical dirge for Oshawa, 

hitching our unallocated plant to a no-rules playbook, 

steering daily bread south to another

maquiladora spewing cars and trucks

to line GM’s pockets with beggared Mexican workers.

 

And far from crude-slicked beaches, far 

from gulls glazed in black gold, 

oily Molochs brew barrels of ecocide,

blind to babes bartered to Exon and the Koch Brothers, 

deaf to teens exhausted by the internal combustion engine,

choking on tomorrow going up in smoke.

Brave and unruly—the young who eye

the maple leaf rusting against melting polar ice,

who bear witness to the ravaged grandeur 

of Atlantic right whales sacrificed 

to drunken cruise ships and dollar-store freight carriers, 

who flag climate refugees pitched

by ocean waves fisting the sky. 

 

Too green are they to weather hope flattened 

by hurricanes, cutting class each Friday 

to tug the state’s ear closer to truth; 

aggrieved and grieving they stare down the UN’s fake nod, 

and bigwigs who back away from a future snuffed 

by the ever-thin promise of permanent jobs flowing 

from trickle-down economics through pipelines, 

into the shareholders’ insatiable maw. 

 

Cavalier guardians hold hostage their planet

rub out the moon, torch the stars—

it’s no surprise that Oshawa darkens

when a kingpin daddy fuses dream to nightmare 

and torpedoes the kid next door. 

 

But if parents love progeny, 

they must keep house—be one with Earth; 

One’s a number that grows on itself  

person by person, summons unity—

sums pushback and power, nurturing union,

 

like vanguard Greta daring One global choir, 

tuning street and jungle to emerald anthem,

to human harmony, mantled Amazon air;

in concert we’re Nature’s all indigenous union 

seeding a clearing through carbonized sky.  

 

And One shouts NO to an orderly wind-down

Oshawa seizes the front seat, keeps on 

the lights; beacons for citizens, workers hail 

E-vehicles, laser bulldozer blight. 

 

A fresh plant electrifies GM’s shuttered heart, 

again, dawns the people’s diamond-hard light. 

 
 

VENTURE: WELLS, B.C.

 
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“Venture: Wells, B.C.” poem will be published in The Trinity Review, Issue TR132.

Midnight crows rend morning dew,

raucous inkwells surge, slur lines

 

how is it robins shit on the tiger lily’s redhead roar

that the teacher’s bloody pen thunderclaps innocents? 

 

Russet hawkweed stifles our lilies—wither

and rust—the house, dog-hungry

 

all night, Goldcorp woos the stone-broke river,

each yes-man pans a diamond ringed score

 

soft shoes over tailings, trips’n splits his lip.

Open pit and cyanide blooms   already the mourning dove,

 

18 karat dust haloes the bride   till death do us part

stark, the silver birch against dark sentinel conifers

  

When poets buzz in people’s ears they’re dinged

and flattened—characters scoring a fresh page.

 

 
 

SOLAR FLORALS COLLECTION

 
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Solar Florals

“In this four-part elegy, the sun shadows life with death; the sunflower faces light but is backed by shade; the Apollonian and leonine hero - a working-class Lycidas - is crashing from drug addiction … [to] the final section of this miniature, …. ‘let those who can memorize light / eclipse their demons,’ hit hard the heart … Giovanna Riccio is a poet of divine - I mean indomitable - gifts. Each unconventional - i.e., insolently brilliant - line summers, in ‘florid burst - August / spiking the air’.” - George Elliott Clarke, 2019. (Solar Florals have been published in Exile Quaterly, 42.3, p.98.)

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 Heliotropism


That word sunflower stiffs the lithe go-getter—

sprightly beam-catcher

more limber the camber of girasoleor tournesol

troping improbable brilliance. 

 

A novice bloom mimes sun,

when night drops, it pivots east, 

lies low until Apollo cycles up

to recharge instinct, boost circadian spunk. 

 

The sunflower senses the cloud’s coverup 

limns elusive winds, never snuffs life’s spark. 

 

All grown up, the seasonedhelianthus  

comes to a stand still, a last stand; 

the summer sage, far-seeing,

tilts eastward for good—back 

shrouded by shade—facing

dusky fire whorling to seed. 

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Anti-helios

 

My rebel sunflower roused

a fey bad-boy toting loud bouquets,

yellow fields romancing canvas, tall photographs,

our shields against stygian spooks

 

or sleep broken by daddy’s drink-primed rage, 

no angel’s skirt rustling refuge either,

only threadbare motherlove drubbed to flight 

cracked plaster and babes tip-toeing on eggshells,  

you rapping adoleful couplet

Don’t push me’ cause I’m close to the edge

an anthem, half smile, half- epitaph   

Sometimes I wonder, how I keep from going under….

 

from pitching into wintry soil

where no happy-flower could root, 

layers of blushing shirts you piled on, a poor fix 

for below-zero shivers, smug classmates a-snicker, 

the teacher’s cold feet jammed in her craven mouth.  

 

In your godforsaken house, the fridge chilled

one crystalline bottle of Smirnoff leaving you,

as senior sibling, to lift Spam, soda crackers 

and canned soup for ravenous kids,  

to bust a lamp on your father’s putrid noggin 

lurid, over your sister—shattered, 

you gathered light shards and at 14, split

for a gamin’s dawn, a castaway crashing 

in an underlit furnace room; castoff blankets 

and solo boy crunching lifesavers in the two-dog night.

 

By instinct you and Henry found each other,  

twohellions, leonine, on the scrapheap 

chalking fighting words in alleyways, 

slinging booze to quell mean-cop fists, 

turning birthdays to drink, drugs and dealing, 

or three-squares in jail where you learned to do laundry

and to bleach the night with smack that left bruises 

trailing up your arm and wasted you 

to a hungry slip needling ghosts. 

 

Then Henry stone-cold on the bed 

from too much memory and dirty junk, 

you, at the window afraid to shoot up, 

reaching through panes, petrified veins 

and dead wood, eyeballing sun detoxing fog. 

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Helios Crashing  

 

So, nothing left but to doff      

the lab coat’s bluff, cut surgical babble  

snaking through drip tubes, (nothing here we can’t reverse)

 

The crescent moon stabs my breast

grief’s bone-sliver blow; wheels hurling 

to no-exit—huis clos,

no emergency exit--

driving a one-way good bye 

down an asphalt mourning ribbon—nothing

but death is irreparable.  

 

If only the corridor were a two-way street, 

but there’s no way back, no call to dodge 

darkness; with the hospital room off life-support, 

dawn streams in, purling light

 

--your body gone lucid,

no more air hunger or thirst for cause,

only you spiriting sun,a halcyon amen

conjuring our beloved willow tree 

and you forever handsome, 

bookish on the beat-up bench

bathed in April rays;

 

And I your lover;

 

your name rising, mint on my lips

and warm, in my empty hand, our first dance, 

when we broke ground 

straining for sky. 

 

Alone, I draped you in emerald silk, planted   

one lone sunflower breaking over your heart. 

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Helianthus Kiss 

 

Five years clean you blew in, an end, 

a beginning glossing New Year’s Eve 

jivers, DJs, you and me itching for alchemy

looking to blaze blues into gold.  

 

Me older, you doing the mature student thing,

we gamboled an incendiary twosome—swayed 

and sashayed, dazing bad-luck and bad lovers;

hot on midnight’s heels, we twirled a volte face

two-stepped to dawn, to sleep afresh, rise anew. 

 

All winter, I fed you tomato-laced penne, 

sharp parmigiano, pears, sparkling water,

stoked logs on the fire, rearranged bygones 

to a high-ceiling refuge for Shangri-la.    

 

But let those who can memorize light,

eclipse their demons; yours lay low like hitmen 

chafing beneath skin and though you rallied 

after each smashing hit, veered into dog-eared books,

or twisted Buddha-like in lotus, each relapse 

scored a black sheep fading to a done deal, 

dead kidneys, dialysis, blood circling--

 

I fire up the computer’s sleeping screen

--sunflower halo over your name;

railing against February’s feeble sky,

I trek Bloor Street florist shops,

unearth a crush of sun-fisted helianthus

and stud the living room with love’s 

petulant corona—each insolent torch, 

each florid burst—August

spiking the air.